I must apologize

Thank you for taking the time to come back to my blog, especially considering how long it has been since I have posted.

First of all I would like to apologize for my absence. I realize that it is not good for a person, or a business for that matter to go silent for as long as I have been. With all of this being said I feel that it requires some sort of explanation.

There are several reasons that all of my activities have stopped. It is not just my blog that went silent so did my personal social media pages as well as my business.

Why? Like I said there are several reasons. First of all one is very close to my heart.  My beautiful pup Brownie (pictured above) has had some health issues as of late. These health issues lead to the discovery of a tumor that we were told has to be removed. This in of itself has been an emotional ride for me. Brownie has been a constant in my life for over ten years and she is my buddy. She has traveled from coast to coast and to Hawaii with me. I have not had a day where I have come home and she has not been there to greet me at the door, or a time when I needed someone to cuddle with that she was not there. I must admit that when we found the tumor that I was scared and I thought the worst. I believed that this tumor had spread before we caught it and that we were going to lose my dear Brownie long before I thought that I would be ready. This sent me the direction of a downward spiral of fear, doubt and to some extent grieving for a loss that I had not suffered yet. I lost my will to move forward and all I was able to think about was that I was going to lose my best friend and I felt that it was all my fault and that there was something that I could have done. Yes, I have a full family and yes they do love me and are there for me, however Brownie has been my rock when no one knew (and I do not even think that she knew) that I needed one, and so this was a very emotional blow. One I did not have a way to handle. However, as luck would have it when we completed the pre-op appointment for Brownie we learned that she has one tumor, and there was no spread to the chest or anywhere! It could still be cancer as the vet warned, however if we get it out now we can stop it early from taking over and eventually taking Brownie from me before I am ready. She will be having surgery soon and I will update all of you on how she is doing over the next week or so.

On another note I am making some plans to hold a fall mini session I am currently scouting a location and working on a price list. I will get this posted as soon as my girl has recovered from her surgery and we are back on track.

Thank you for the love and support!